Day Twenty-One

Unfortunately, TJ does not have an eternal perspective on life. I am hopeful the Lord of Lords will change his heart. He is more open to attending church regularly and attending some of the conferences that are offered periodically at our church. I pray his attendance won't be the only part of him there....I cherish the day he will turn himself over to the Lord. I know it will happen, it's just a matter of when. The hardest part is realizing that he knows the truth, he just doesn't want to submit to it. He is so focused on what he says is 'putting family first' that he doesn't even hear me when I explain that putting Jesus first in his life is what his family needs and in reality... truly putting his family first. I just don't understand how someone can admit to know the Bible is 100% true, yet not want to apply it. In our discussion I found myself wanting to curse at him and call him names, but that is so NOT what Jesus wants. I was truly hurt and broken by our conversation, I even felt like giving up on him. I can't do that!! I won't do that!! Jesus isn't giving up on him, I see the Lord working on him even if TJ doesn't. TJ is worth it!! I just pray he realizes that I don't care how much money he makes, if he cooks or cleans or if we have a big house, I simply......want him in Heaven with me and the kids.